second post..
GAYFRIEND, your post is previous 1, read that first..
well, i'm offline..
came here to post another post for my GF..
felt much better after talking to GF through msn..
just a simple "why" makes me feel better..
at least got ppl who is concern..
a simple "jiayou" comforts me alot..
it's like a force behind me..
pushing me.. encouraging me..
at least i still got GF..
X.i.e.X.i.e.N.i.!.!.!.

here's something specially for you..
GAYFRIEND!!!
friend.you.make.me.happy.
bring.sunshine.to.my.life.
a.light.of.hope.you.always.are.
standing.by.me.near.and.far.
lending.me.your.shoulder.
when.i.need.to.cry.
you're.part.of.my.life.friend.
forever.in.my.heart.
you're.part.of.my.life.friend.
forever.in.my.heart.

:)

G.O.O.D.N.I.G.H.T.
T.A.K.E.C.A.R.E.A.L.L.
t.a.k.e.c.a.r.e.l.a.o.g.o.n.g.
t.a.k.e.c.a.r.e.g.a.y.f.r.i.e.n.d.

GAY FRIEND!!!
alright i've seen your blog..
maybe i should stop bothering bout you..
maybe you can push all faults to me..
maybe it will make you feel better..
maybe i should just ignore you..
maybe the gay friend you know is dead..
i am busybody..
i am stupid..
i am idiotic..
i am nobody..
i am alone-d!!!

my laogong went to look for job..
he started working yesterday..
this week is my unlucky week..
he found a job..
spending lesser time with me..
i got back my results fail all..
poor me..
only passed chinese..
when i need someone to comfort me..
i got no one by my side..
no laogong..
not even gay friend..

what can i do???
i can only buried myself with more workloads..
trying hard to find things to do..
spent alot of time in jwss..
having evacuation lessons..
can anyone just lend me your shoulder to cry??
listening to my favourite songs wont work..
gary, used to be my best medicine..
seeing him cant work anymore..

tml got ndp..
i am able to keep myself busy again..
i can stop thinking poor results..
i can stop remembering the content we,GF, qurrelled
i can stop missing laogong..
i can just forget about everything..

i think i cant take it anymore!!!
right now i am crying..
can anyone understand??
i cant take it anymore!!!
falling sick soon!!!

YEAH!!!


Exams are over..
Spent some time doing nonsense stuffs..
And i found a document [-Project NCOs camp report-]
So i went on reading.. Here's the cadets comment bout me..
MUHAHA..


Buvan: Mary Maam- She was one of the VI who had a lot work to do. I am so sorry for you throat as I think I am a reason for it in a way or another. Keep up the good work and I have got no bad comments about you! (no worries bout my throat. thanks for the positive comments!!)


Ying Yan:Mary Ma’am-She was very kind and she looked like Nicholas. I was so sorry to let her shout that she lost her voice and she was sick. She was very kind to our group during the heritage tour and she gave us a lot of clues. We even took photos together in the tunnel. She also did a good job as a DT. (no worries bout my throat.thanks for the positive comments!! i love taking photos :] )


Pei Ling:Mary Ma’am- She is a caring Ma’am. As a DI, she scolds us as she doesn’t want us to get scolded by the instructors. After all this scolding, she herself has sore throat and loses her voice. During the debrief, she still take the initiative to write down her thoughts and feelings and tell Samsul Sir to read out for her even though she say the right not to say anything. =] (thanks for the positive comments!!)


CindyKwoh:Mary madam-She is the DI in the second day which i am the day ICs for that
day.She is very nice person and gives clear instuctions to me.I like her very much. (you like me, haha you're nice too :] )


JessiePoon:Mary ma’am-She is friendly and also enthusiastic. She joins us in games too. (thanks for the positive comments!!)


JuneKoh:Mary ma’am- She was a very good Duty Trainer and she had made sure that everything that needs to be done, was done on time. (thanks for the positive comments!!)


ShiYuan:Mary Ma'am and Hazwani Ma'am are quite quiet. (i quiet, hmmm, dun agree)


KingNgee:Mary ma’am- She was a very good Duty Trainer and she had made sure that everything that needs to be done, was done on time. (hey, you copied!)


HuiLing:Mary Ma’am is also a ma’am who puts on a stern face most of the time. She is very fair. She knows well when to be funny and when to be serious. But I still think that she should have put on a smile more often. (k, i will smile more :] )

Faraliza:Mary Ma’am is very different in NDP2007 as compared to the camp. In NDP, she is a very funny instructor who never fails to tell jokes. However, she was very firm and strict in the camp, allowing most cadets who do not know her well to fear her. (i know when to draw the line)

Odilia Tan:Mary maam: she make sure we are discipline and teat everybody equally and she is nice towards us. (thanks for the positive comments!!)

Qatrunnada:Mary Ma’am is also one of the ma’ams who have a stern look most of the time. She is fair to others. I pitied her when she had a sore throat because of us. She should smile more often. ( :] no worries bout my throat )

Ummu:Mary Ma’am-She was a great DI but I did not see a lot of her. She seems ok and nice. I find her very good towards us.

Derong:Mary Ma'am- Responsible in whatever she does.

Amani:Mary ma’am- She’s kind and a friendly ma’am.

Well, quite happy bout their comment it brightens my day :)
but someone name ZHENGNONG he spoilt my day.. TOTALLY!!!
DAMN IT!!!

Ah.. i not only want to say i love you jiafeng but i wanna shout
I LOVE YOU JIA FENG!!!

With you jiafeng,
i felt that i'm the most blessed person on earth.

I enjoyed myself at sentosa.
Although its only our second month,
i truely believe we will have 400 2months.
Which is 66 years together!!!

Thank You!!!
For whatever you did i feel so blessed!!!
I LOVE YOU!!!

k, i went to C camp..
and i sprained my foot which is like HOOO~!!!!

but i still went for NDP training.
walking around at suntec with mufti and SLIPPERS is wierd man..
lunch was yam rice (YUCKS)
dinner was 意大利面 (YUMMY)
jiafeng,paul,hanquan went to suntec.. to look for me?? hahs
we took photo for passes, i'm ugly..
looking after logistics is totally crazy.. BORING SIA!!!
i'm not going to do that next week!!!

ytd was 率真素食大会.
performance by 觉德 was COOL!!
kids performance by 节德 was CUTE!!!
well jessica won champion for story telling competition!!! yeah!!

k the whole holiday i was not studying!!!
OMG and tml is mid yr..
dead flat!!!