Term test's timetable is out..

Well.. if i yar yar and say i'm not scare of it, i must be joking la...

like what mr teo mention..

my maths sucks.. which means i will fail my themo..

my english sucks... which means i will fail CRS..

haiz!! my target was to get at least GPA 3.5

imagine i fail these modules.. gosh!!

SP had their graduation ceremony ytd..

i'm so so so afraid i cant graduate by 2010..

i wanted to further my studies..

go sailing.. be a chief engineer.. and even get a degree..

but everything seems impossible.. haiz!!

k, i wont have time for revisions..

2jun to 7jun STUDY??

8jun to 12jun going overseas for CIP..

12jun to 14jun B camp..

15jun to 18jun STUDY??

19jun to 22jun unit camp..

23jun thermodynamics test..

24jun engineering drawing test..

26jun maths test..

look at the wide smile on each and everyone's faces..

some pictures of the week..

FCUK!! i type this post for like 15 mins and WOAH!! gone!! need to retype..

my whole week was shag!! i had only 5 hours of sleep for the past 3 days.. my workload is stacking up... more than i can take.... i'm really really stressed!! who can i complain to?? i doubt anyone bother to listen..

i felt so lost today... its since the day i lost him..
-i lost not only him
-i lost a boyfriend (my darling)
-i lost a shoulder (to cry)
-i lost a ear (listening to me)
-i lost a bear bear (to hug)
-i lost a bodyguard (bringing me home)
-i lost a teacher (taught me lots)
-i lost a jokebook (makes me smile)
-i lost an entertainment (makes my day)
i can afford to loss all the above..
but i lost a super really close good friend :(

i miss the days after ndp..
-i miss the days when someone will bring me back after ndp..
-i miss the days when someone will wait outside hq..
-i miss the days when someone will buy subway cookies for me..
-i miss the days when someone will carry my stuffs for me..
-i miss the days when someone will lend me his chest for me to sleep..
-i miss the days when someone will hug me to prevent me from falling when stand-sleeping..
-i miss the days when someone will listen to my complains bout everything..
-i miss the days when someone will hold my hands as i walk half-asleep..
-i miss the days when someone will send me home to my door..
-i miss the days when someone will kiss me goodbye..
-i miss the days when someone will sms me good night..
where the hell can you find a second person like that..??
i misses his everything..
his long hands..
his hugs..
his kisses..
his care..
his concern..
his chest..
his curly hair..
his smell..
his sms..
his bad front tooth..
his smooth t-shirt..
his nagging..
his scolding..
how i wish he can scold me like he used to.. scold me shoopid/idiot.. anything..
but no more..

i HATE myself.. i forced myself to smile :] but it will only hurt myself more... i dun want to lie to myself and pretend like i'm okie!! i know i'm not fine... stay happy always.... easier said than done... if there is undo button in life i will want to go back to the past... when nothing happened between both of us... i dun want to know you.. i dun want to talk to you.. neither do i want to remember you name... cos it hurts!!

if wishes come true..
1) i want to stay happy always.. thats all.. simple...
2) if not at least i want my tears to dry up so i will not be crying anymore!!!
3) if i can have 10 seconds in his arms... ONLY 10..

well went ndp yesterday..

meet up with hongyi and lixuan...
me and hongyi bought this super super nice drink from cheers... but i forget to take picture of it... haha.. next time la...

training was pretty okie.. cadets drills were not bad la.. there was still quite alot to work on... i'm sure they will improve...

i took pretty alot of picture.. both the cadets and personal la... i love my 5megapixel phone!!

wilson sir wanted to talk to me afew times but i interupted, if not i just try to avoid him... dunno what was up on his mind... but i think he just want to show concern..
nicky sir mention that i was not that bek he knew... dunno how to reply him... i didnt say i was fine or not... just smiled and change topic..

well i'm not fine, i'm not okie, but i'm not bad..

gift from japan.. given by nicky sir.. he claim it looks like me... true.. thats me!!

another handphone accessory.. this one is from taiwan... given by hongyi sir!! smile bek :/