sian sian sian

yesterday's footdrill training was totally suck..
not becos of the cadets' drills.. but i was sick..
my face was so pale.. shishi thought tat i was really not okie.. but i am fine..
the happy part of training was tat the sec1s know all the commands le..
fast ba.. within 3 trainings nia.. i am so proud of them..
and they are goin for mass accred for footdrill silver.. i am sure they all will pass de..!!
so jiayou ba..

then today go pack rc room.. super sian..
actually is to get all NCOs.. but in the end??
onli got 5 ppl there.. WHAT THE!!!
ATTITUDE sia..

for now i confrim myself going VIP..
got pohboon sir.. jian fu sir.. jason sir..
this 3 sirs are cute sirs..
haha.. envy?? too bad..
you wont know the hardship behind lor..

tml FDC training again..
hope they can improve on bangings..
i dun care lor.. will train on only bang tml..
they sian.. i more sian..!!! ARGHHH!!!!

8 more days to baobei birthday..
16 more days to my birthday..
17 more days to VIP..
30 more days to suhaila birthday.. ( see i helping you count down)

thank you for all you friends' concern..
i am fine.. dun need to worry so much about me..

i just need somebody to talk to.. i will be fine.. shishi volunteered le.. haha nice friend..
but you know right.. i want you to tell me what to do.. you know i listen to you de..
i guess i am stupid.. you will never know i need your ears now..

tml will be a tired, hard day..
shishi fell sick..
not able to go for FDC training..
me alone again.. =(

my blog song sings... Listen to your heart...

dilemma

where should i start..
okie some1 from SRCS called imforming me about VIP contact session..
suddenly i felt like not going for VIP anymore..
how??
the flame in me is gone..
i want to be VI becos i wanna help jwss which is goin to fall anytime..
since mr wong is interested in asking QX back to jwss so why should i go and torture myself..??
also i will be goin for VIP all alone..
but being a VI in uniform was my dream!!!
diedie.. so go or not to go??
can anyone give me a good advice??
tell me yes/not..
please give me the right advice and not made me regret again!!!

i just wished to be left alone!!!

enjoying my holiday..

yeah.. back.. where should i start?? hmmm..
23 got meeting with mr wong,shi2,cinlee,mardhiyah,geraldine.. (see i spelt mardhiyah name correctly!!!)
then after tat went to see the peeps for talentime.. they are quite alright.. see some hope in winning.. or rather we must win man.. spent so much money for the instructor.. shi2 and cinlee took a pic in drama room.. they are in prison.. haha..

chalet was lots of fun.. must thank syaiful.. who made me mashmallow.. lots of mashmallows.. yummy!!! then gone night cycle janice baoxin cycle from 11.30 to around 1 plus.. from aloha to pasir ris park.. then had a stop at the playground.. we played swing.. haha.. had a lame video.. but i dunno how to load.. so too bad.. then climb up the dunno wad.. took pictures.. then sit down to let the sea wind blow.. super tired.. then sleep.. around 4+ i woke up cos of dunno wad.. iffri and irdaus were playing play station.. soccer game.. luckily i saw the last match.. finals.. irdaus won iffri 2 to 1.. then iffri present a cup to irdaus.. which signify irdaus winning the cup.. lame.. haha.. around 7.45 i woke bao to sent me to bus stop.. thanks to nora who ride me.. if not i also dunno to walk how long to reach the bus stop.. also thanks to baobei who accompanied me since the previous night and tat morning.. thank janice and pearl who was sitting in front cycling for the both days.. really fun cycling..
i dunno wad happen to janice face.. its really scary to take pics at night..
me & baobei.. see the white thinggy.. i dunno wads tat.. it wasnt there when we r! baobei again..

then meet up with shishi for FDC training.. training was not really tough ba.. the weather was great.. it was raining tat morning.. their drills was not bad.. rather good for onli the first training.. the squad i took gave me a solid bang all the way for the first hour.. after tat was the whole "gang" doing footdrill together.. then the bang onli from one side got solid... pretty proud of them.. i guess should be able to win if the mistakes from last year nv happen.. like YO bulling VI.. ppl giving attitude.. this year no YO,no VI.. so this problem wont happen.. also i am having the second girl squard of jwss fdc.. which the first time we had a girl squad we won 2nd in district and 3rd in national.. so i hope history WILL repeat itself!!! girl squard will not give tat much trouble ba..
today went to the sports complex.. its a family outing.. my dad,mum,bro,3sis went swimming them annie and i we went to gym.. they enjoyed themselves swimming.. so are we in the gym.. they planned to go there next week but i am not able to join them haiz.. contact session is starting next saturday and sunday.. sian..

**idiotic stranger "noname" please dun come up back here.. i felt so irritated.. if you come back here i will lock up this place.. just pray that you do not come back..

never a right time to say goodbye

Baby come here and sit down, let's talk
I got a lot to say so I guess I'll start by
Saying that I love you,
But you know, this thing ain't been
No walk in the park for us
I swear it'll only take a minute
You'll understand when I finish, yeah
And I don't wanna see you cryBut I don't wanna be the one to tell you a lie so

How do you let it go? When you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Everything I tried to remember to say
Just went out my head
So I'ma do the best I can to get you to understand

*There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you, it's me
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

Girl I know your heart is breaking
And a thousand times I
Found myself asking, "Why? Why?"
Why am I taking so long to say this?
But trust me, girl I never
Meant to crush your world
And I never
Thought I would see the day we grew apart
And I wanna know

How do you let it go? When you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Girl I hope you understand
What I'm tryna say.
We just can't go on
Pretending that we get along
Girl how you not gonna see it?

(*chorus)

Listen to your heart
Girl you know,We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
I, I just can't do it
Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
And sometimes it makes me wanna cry
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh [4x]
Do you hear me crying?
Oh, oh, oh [4x]

(*chrous)

(*chrous)

My New Life..

changing so many blog song.. But still prefer this song.. Too little too late..
I love some parts of the lyrics..
"Cause time has made me strong,I'm starting to move on,I'm gonna say this now,Your chance has come and gone"
I love the chorus!!!
IMPORTANTLY I LOVE MYSELF!!!

i have been in love with tis hongkong drama series.. about planes on channel U 22:00.. i enjoy everything about is show except for this character who looks like HIM!!! SO IDIOTIC!!! they looks so similar like long lost brother..

Os finishing tml.. i am STRESS-FREE!!! yeah.. FDC training is here.. VIP is coming.. My birthday is reaching.. LiaoYuan is more and more.. Still got Malaysia JianXue.. My whole holiday is full!!! But nvm.. Keeping myself busy is better than thinking of something crazy.. Right?haha..
the book of my life is goin to turn to another page.. Everything nice will be brought together with me into this fresh new page.. But bad stuffs will be covered.. Buried.. I am starting my life fresh after 21NOV2006!!! Sounds like i release from jail.. yar i am release from JWSS.. =) the new page will be fun.. with RedCross RC RC RC.. VolunteerInstructorProgramme VIP VIP VIP.. LiaoYuan LY LY LY.. better than what i have thought..

Ending my post with this, which is from an e-mail Mr Wong sent me.. Its meaningful so I would like to share..
"A diamond is lump of coal that did well under pressure"

Blog Song!!

Too Little Too Late
JoJo

Ooh no
Come with me, stay the night
You say the words but boy it don't feel right
What do you expect me to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You take my hand, and you say you've changed
But boy you know your beggin don't fool me
Because to you it's just a game (You know it's just too little too late)
So let me on down
Cause time has made me strong
I'm starting to move on
I'm gonna say this now
Your chance has come and gone
And you know

CHORUS
**It's just too little too late
A little too wrong
And I can't wait
Boy you know all the right things to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You just like the chase
To be real, it doesn't matter anyway (You know it's just too little too late)**

I was young and in love
I gave you everything but it wasn't enough
And now you wanna communicate (You know it's just too little too late)
Go find someone else
In lettin you go, I'm lovin myself
You gotta problem
But don't come askin me for help
Cause ya know

**CHORUS**

I can love with all of my heart baby
I know I have so much to give (I have so much to give)
With a player like you, I don't have a prayer
That's the way to live, yeah oh
It's just too little, too late
Yeah!!

**CHORUS**

survey.. from LAO PO DA REN

01. Single , taken or crushing?
single.. dun hope to be taken..

02. Are you happy with your life now?
yar..

03. When you meet the right person , do you fall in love with him/her first?
u think leh

04. Have you ever had your heart broken?
i also dun 1..

05. Do you believe there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
NO!!!

06. Would you take someone back if he/she cheats on you?
nope!! asking for trouble onli..

07. Have you talk about marriage with another person before?
no.. we tok bout our children..

08. Do you want children?
YESH!!

09. How many children would you want to have?
2 enough

10. Would you consider adoption?
no..

11. If someone likes you right now, what do you think is the best way to let you know his/her feelings?
just say lah..

12. Do you enjoy getting into relationships?
erm.. yes.no

13. Be honest, what is the furthest you and your ex did?
i dunno.. furthest place? EXPO..

14. Do you believe in love at first sight?
yar..

15. Are you romantic?
nope.. i am idiotic.. too bad..

16. Do you believe you can change someone?
doin now..

17. If you can marry somewhere, where would it be?
on an aeroplane..

18. Do you easily give in when you are fighting?
nope!! unless i am in wrong..

19. Do you have feelings for someone right now?
yesh.. feeling ANGRY!!

20. Have you ever wished that you could have had someone but you messed it up?
no..

21. Have you ever broken a heart?
STUPID same question again..

22. If one day your best friend fall in love with the girl/guy you deeply in love with, what would you do?
it wont happen.. or i will kill her!!!

23. Are you missing something right now?
nope!!miss his ASS!!!

Now think of five friends that you would like them to do this love survey and list down their names below.
1) zhaoyi
2)zhaoyi
3)zhaoyi
4)zhaoyi
5)zhaoyi

boring weekend..

HEY!!! u guys got listen to my blog song?? the where r u is super nice no harm listening..
then got another song so sick.. the first english song i fell in love with.. maybe u dun like.. but is a song with memories..

ytd went to tian guo liao yuan.. then went to chalet.. so boring.. sat there watch tv.. things tat i can do at home.. bo liao.. the whole day was so tired.. then came back at 5 sleep.. until 7+ abit headache plus fever.. today muscle joints all aching..

why ppl say i got boyfren.. dun hab lah.. persis hor..!!!

chatting with ms wong.. tok bout everything under the sun.. haha..
of cos we gossip.. but not goin tell u who and wad we tok about..
she encourage me by telling me i sure can pass VIP..
there is not kind of sure pass but really thank you..
from her i learn something "it doesnt mean that we treat pple nicely, pple will treat us nicely back.."
i am goin to learn from tis.. and treat every1 nicely..
promise unless ur an idiotic sucker..

cute guy..

his so cute.. look like xiao JIAN FU sir.. goin support him for the project super star..
his name is daren.. his so cute sia!!! not onli cute.. also very fit.. he knows how to cook..
most importantly his cute!!! i just love him sia..

where are you

by natalie with justin roman
know you're out there baby
Somewhere.
There's someone out there for me
I know there is somebody out there
I know she is waiting so patiently
Can you tell me her name?(somebody tell me her name)
This life long search is going to drive me insane

How does she laugh, how does she cry?
What's the color of her eyes?
Does she even realize, I'm here?

Where is she? where is she? Where is she?
Where is this beautiful girl
Who is she? Who is she?
Who's going to complete my world
Where is she? where is she? Where is she?
Where is this beautiful girl
Who is she? Who is she?
Who's going to complete my world

Ladadlalalda

Where are you?

I'm staring out at the sky(I see you baby)
Prayin' that he will walk in my life
Where is the man of my dreams?(I'm right here)
I'll wait forever, how silly it seems?
How does he laugh, how does he cry?
What's the color of his eyes?
Does he even realize, I'm here?

Where is he? where is he? Where is he?
Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he? Who is he?
Who's going to take me so high?
Where is he? where is he? Where is he?
Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he? Who is he?
Who's going to take me so high?

Ladadlalalda

Where are you?

There's someone out there for me(There's someone out there for me)
I know there is somebody out there
I know she is waiting so patiently(so patiently)
Can you tell me her name?(Can you tell me his name?)
This life long search is going to drive me insane

How does he laugh, how does he cry?
What's the color of his eyes?
Does he even realize, I'm here?

Where is she? where is she? Where is she?
Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she? Who is she?Who's going to complete my world?

Where is he? where is he? Where is he?
Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he? Who is he?Who's going to take me so high?

Ladada da da Ladada da da Ladada da da
I know you're out there
Ladada da da Ladada da da Ladada da da
Where are you?

I'll look all over the world baby
because I know you're out there
and I know it must sound crazy
but I think I love you
Ladada da da Ladada da da
Where are you?

hey.. i miss every1!!!

finally back after so mani mani mani days of studying..
yeah.. got 10 days break.. then 1 and a third paper its Dt and Sci MCQ..
dun wanna tok bout hows Os.. since its over, i just dun wanna care le.. time to enjoy and dun think about it..

tok bout my personal life..
i think its time to let u go ba.. you have been tied by me for more than a year.. always being bully by me.. letting me scold u like idiot.. still say sorrie when u dunno wad happen.. yar.. this stupid kind of bullying will end.. finally ended.. u will not be bullied not get scolded for nth.. dun have to waste time accompanying me shopping,movies, trying to entertain me.. no need le.. dun even have to waste money for my birthday present.. its really nice to know u.. nv really blame u ba.. imagine if u nv tok to me?? haha i wont know u le.. i guess when people fell down.. they get hurt but they will learnt to be more careful.. i learnt not to make some1 my everything.. once i lose u.. i am left with nth.. dun worry bout me.. i still got frens who look after me well.. time will heal all wounds.. i will try to get use to time not having u by my side anymore.. i believe i will get over it.. just hope i dun get so sad.. eat and eat and eat until i go to my usual self.. 60KG OMG!!!

hereby to make an public apologize to you lah..
SORRIE!!! SORRIE!!!