that kiddo ate the chocolate i gave him.. of course he shared with me..
he is really a kiddo la.. hahaha..
actually he dont like me calling him kiddo but who cares i love calling him that.. kiddo kiddo kiddo!!

kept disturbing him in class today during thermodynamics..
how??
just kept sms-ing and calling each other.. lame..
anyway no1 is listening to thats teacher's lesson lor...

here's what the class was doing..


they look like listening to him.. but simply was entertaining him only....
see cute faqih was sleeping...
melvyn even drew flowers on his lecture notes..
told you not a single one was listening...

but trust me.. i will listen to mr teo.. fun time is over..
starting from labour day i must pay attention in class le.. i promise!!

thank you for constantly asking me why i'm sad..
really thank you for showing your concern..
not that i purposely ignore you or dun want to share with you the reasons..
well you see you can tell me everything about yourself..
i cant you see..
you are not a stranger but we only knew each other for 2 weeks..

but i still told you the reason why i'm sad..
agree that there's no point having one sided love..
life still have to move on..
i should try to move on..
thanks for listening..

now i'm not sad le (:
you kiddo good night

from some chain mail:
"由一至十中，你最喜歡哪個數目字？ "
my answer:
"3"
results
你所選出來的號碼代表你在找到真命天子之前談過的變愛次數
but i've already passed that number.
1. Roy
2. Vernon
3. Jeffery
4. JF
totally crap :/

i dunno :(

when lixuan feels bothered regarding her new classmates she will come to me..
when bettina feels packed regarding her studies and projects she will come to me..
when junwei feels stress regarding his lots of maths tutorials he will come to me..
BUT
when mary feels sad regarding her stuffs who will she go to?? she really dunno.. :(

i'm okie??

why am i still listening to that sad blog song when it tells me to move along..
since he cant give me happiness i'm sure some other ppl can...
or at least i will bring happiness to myself :)
wanna thank junwei who tried so much to cheer me up... but failed...
dun worry jun wei i'm okie la!!!

OH MY GOSH!!! he is so cute la!!
well i'm recently listening to 933's 名牌女郎 and he is the main character.. i just love him la!!! <3

[~宽恕心~]

something i've learnt from yaokun and i would like to share with everyone..

what izzit all about?? read the story below...
无意间看到一幅漫画，A拿了一张白纸，用一支笔在中间画了一个黑点，然后问B：「你看到了甚么？」「一个黑点罗！」B一脸不屑地回答说。A再问：「为甚么这么大一片白色你看不到，而只看到这黑色的一小点呢？」B一脸茫然。这里提出的的确是一道发人深思的问题。在生活中，在这个五光十色的社会中，我们往往是把别人的小小缺点一眼就能看到，而更多的优点却视而不见。

dun look at only people's weakness.. try looking at their strengths...

一般人说：「我恨你」，但是你恨对方，对方也许并不知情。因为不知情，他不会有任何损失，也不会有甚么负担，反倒是自己的内心，因为有「恨」而一刻也不得宁静，痛苦不已，因此，我们要了解，「恨」是世界上最愚痴的行为。

快乐不是别人可以给我们的，而是要由我们自己来解脱，自己来超越。想要得到快乐，就不要太「过敏」；太过敏的人，对周遭的一切都太在乎、太在意了，那就像自己拿了好多条绳子绑住自己一样，真是自找麻烦，自讨苦吃。

move along :(

well i changed my blog song again..
this was the song introduced by jf when he know i just brokeup with jt..
he encouraged me to move along, stay strong..
but now jf left me for so long.. i still can move along..
stupid mary still had dreams of him..
though i look like i am strong i can do without him.. i cant..
oh god, i hope listening to this song helps...

1may07 the day you+me=us
1may08
the day westies going to meet for outing..
sorry but i got to say..
i'm making use of you guys to keep myself busy so i wont think of him..
sorry ppl.. i know you all will be more than happy to occupy me..

everyone thought i'm okay.. whenever ppl ask if i was fine i will always reply i'm okie.. smile and pretend.. i thought i was fine already after so long.. but who else besides me know that i'm not okie..? who can i talk to when i'm feeling low? my family members loves me.. my fellow VIs loves me.. my tongxiu loves me.. my classmates loves me... so why am i still sad?? can i put it in this way that hundreds,thousands,millions of lovers cant replace this 1 person?? i also dunno.. i hope i'm really okie after crying out..
move along mary!!

Who doesn't long for someone to hold.
Who knows how to love you without being told.
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own.
If there's a soulmate for everyone.

the best part of a love relationship is when the feelings for each other are ambiguous

:( I LOST ALL MY PHOTOGRAPHS I TOOK ON SPEECH DAY :(

SCHOOL WAS OKIE :)
-i had wonderful classmates in DMR/FT/1B/22 & 21..
my class 22, got 21 peeps which includes 3 girls, 18 guys (6chineses, 12malays)
next class 21, got 19 peeps which includes 3 girls, 16guys (2malays, 14chineses)
we are known as DMR 1B!!! everyone in the class rocks k!!!!
-my class 22 got NONSENSE 4 (aka N4)
they are Melvyn, SongErn, JunYong, YongLin.... really 4 nonsense guys.. the class would be quite bored without their noise!!! so keep it up!!
-nevertheless those malay guys who keep calling me "my name is mary, i'm not a malay" also it was them who sarbo me to be assistant class representive... i'm sure they will be the main reason if my malay is going to improve la...
-ppl in class21 are super fun too.. like kailun (aka khairul) he's really stylish k... with his dyed hair and his cool fancy pants.. not forgetting his gang... haha.. there's this guy name faris... he really looks like chinese... haha.. totally opposite of me (i look like malay) i'm going to use this semester to teach him chinese and i will force him to teach me malay!!!
-then another more quiet group consisting the 3 girls and fanhow... i mean they rarely talk to me... but i know i will get to know them more as time goes by...
i'm very glad to be part of DMR 1B!!!

i love all these modules..
-Critical Reasoning Skills (English la)
-Basic Mathematics (A maths)
-Character Development
i'm fine with these modules..
-Basic Thermo Dynamics (physics)
-IDEAS...
-Engineering Drawing...

Appointed as assistant class representative :/ stupid class representative was simply not doing anything... i dun want to be "PROMOTED" as class representative :X

:'( I LOST ALL MY PHOTOGRAPHS I TOOK ON SPEECH DAY :(

i'm busy for the past 2 weeks.. with redcross camp and speech day rehearsal and school... still training to cope with the changes...

school is okie... at first i think itth sucks.. but after listening to mr teo's lecture... i feel much much better... at least i know i didnt make a wrong choice to get into marine engineering.. and at least i feel assured.. :\

went bugis ytd with nong.. i waited for him for 2hrs.. cin asked if i was angry.. my reply was no.. but actually i was abit mad at him.. but whats the purpose of being angry.. no point... yar... we went bugis street to see bag.. and i bought my this new school bag.... after that he suggest to go marina square so we went.. he brought a necklace... we took half an hour to make up our mind... okie la.. that necklace was not really nice.. but dunno why every necklace he tried all suits him... ARGH!!! haha... he is like "Dao Ming Si" every clothes he tried suits him perfectly... GOSH!!! haha... then we head for dinner... he had "Gan Lao Mian" then we went walk walk at marina square and head off to suntec.. walk into every sports shop we could spot.. and look at jacket, shoes, shirt, everything... after that went mac for desert... SUNDAE!!!! yar then home....

nong owes me 2 ice creaam!!!!!!

SCHOOL IS NOT FUN :(

i'm feeling very upset now after repeating this Angela Zhang's song..
親愛的 那不是愛情
:(

SCHOOL'S STARTING TML :/


wah.. school's starting tml.. i wanna skip orientation de leh... so excited lah... chey...

programme for tml..

Singapore Maritime Academy (SMA) @ MLT1
9.00 am
-Director’s Address

10.10 am
- SP & Green Pledge

10.15 am
- B R E A K

10.30 am
-Principal’s Address
-SAA Video

10.50 am
-Library Video
-Performances
-Flag Day Briefing

11.30 am
-Tour of SMA Facilities

2.00 pm - Home!!


sian la.. junwei called me just now... actually wanna skip orientation and go recee with him accompanied by baoyu... but now... sian.. orientation is compulsory... idiotic lah... sian sian sian...
tsk!! tsk!! tsk!!

morning was briefing for WRCD.. reach there at 8.30 when supposed to reach only at 9.. thanks to junwei la.. then slack awhile when qijun sir got me,baoyu,keane to help usher cadets up to hall.. then organised them and briefing starts at 10.30 sharp.. then listen to boring speaker until cannot tarhan went to canteen for a drink... after that baoyu went toilet and we saw this..

tiny man sign at the boys toilet.. its only for small boy, and baoyu went in.. haha..
then me and baoyu and shinghwee ma'am left at 11.15 heading to ndp..


supper rush la, need to eat lunch and get change..
this was the first thing i did when i saw shing hwee ma'am


2 + 2 = 4..
haha.. its me and baoyu's CO ranks!!
alot of time to play and disturb baoyu today.. haha we took the same squad..
BRAVO.. B for bek, B for Baoyu.. haha lame...
Yar what he did was to keep a look out at cadets.. mine was to shout command.. thanks to baoyu la.. make me shout shout..

this yr i found 2 cadets to "replace" sikai and farhan liao.. haha.. last yr i disturb them alot la.. but i treated them the best k.. borrow sikai all my badges and farhan my WO rank.. this yr i found ahteck and gordon.. haha.. all instructors dun bully them hor.. only i can.. cos i asked them to be timer until ahteck no voice.. and gordon looks like he cant shout timing liao.. haha.. being my favourite cadet isn't that simple de k... muhaha..


me and tang..


well naughty mary took baoyu's specs while he was sleeping and took photo with it.. do i look like him?? haha.. i also took a picture of his "just wake up look" but i wont post it.. its for my own reference..




i lost my ez-link card :( damn moody during dinner time.. even nicky sir's jokes cant work.. but now i'm okie le... : mummy say she'll give me her extra adult ez-link card.. i feel like i'm not a kid anymore... using adult ez-link card, paying adult fare... mary has grown up!!

AWARDS AND PROMOTIONS CEREMONY
(part 5)

SEE WHAT SEE??!!!

1st was nicky sir doing funny face..
2nd was wilson sir blocking my face with his hands..
finally a great photo taken!!



can you spot the difference??

AWARDS AND PROMOTION
(part4)


after dinner was the HQ nco de promotion.. haha.. pretty excited, first time being promoted leh... haha.. yar.. junwei helped his 2 generals change their ranks leh.. haha.. so honoured to be your general leh.. muhaha.. then take photo again with new ranks.. 2 lines le leh.. dun play play hor..






top 3 best photo of promotion ceremony 2008!!
(i think lah)


3rd: NDP'07 sisters (we're missing bettina)



2nd: the 3 handsome sirs ("tall" to tallest)


1st: West district the 89s!!

AWARDS AND PROMOTIONS CEREMONY
(part3)
pictures arranged IN NO ORDERS okie...

AWARDS AND PROMOTION CEREMONY
(part2)

well well.. after the presentations to schools.. its promotion ceremony for the commissional officers...
congrats to:
-alfian sir & ms shyam promoted to Senior Youth Officers
-jiayun ma'am & nicky sir & wilson sir promoted to Youth Officers
-shing hwee ma'am, engkee sir, yingsheng sir, joan ma'am, joshua sir, and alot alot alot more sirs/ma'ams being promoted to Assistant Youth Officers

kk, then was dinner la.. the food was not bad la.. i really piti those ppl on duty who cant have their food until they were told to do so... but i need to thank them too, if without them doing the SK how can marybek be enjoying her dinner..?? also kelian de junwei.. suddenly called to be andy sir's runner.. and couldn't sit, eat, talk with his 2 generals.. but at least he knows that we are concern bout him.. we brought alot of food for hungry junwei to eat.. touched right?? muhaha... also i took alot alot pictures with anyone whom i can catch and is willing to take photo with me la..

i really need to F some1 lor.. we the ppl standing at the table eating and that fellow just cut in between saying she wants to put some stuffs.. what the hell and she pushed me and leonard out of the standing table.. kao.. so BA DAO!!

AWARDS AND PROMOTION CEREMONY 2008!!!

(part1)

haha.. as mentioned.. here to update about yesterday's awards and promos..

well thanks to junwei.. ah bek here got a new nick name.. "CO-bek" and he called me "Ti Ko Pek" thanks ar "PCO-tan" aka "Pi Dan"

well i took alot of pictures la.. over 100 pics in 1 evening.. record breaking leh... muhaha...

the first part was awards presentation.. where the principals, VPs, YOs, or unit chair will go take their EUA and CSA.. thank you mr wong who help me take photo with the awards!!

congrats to my YOs la.. really alot of effort put in to achieve gold-gold.. jiayou leh.. getting gold-gold is not the end.. its just the new beginning for jwssrcy.. i'm sure there's many many many many many many many many gold gold to come right??

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most??
saying something and wishing you hadn't, or
saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.
Dun be afraid to tell them you love them.
If you do, they might break your heart..
If you don't, you might break theirs..

Have you ever decide not to become couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.

You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own........
when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?

Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much... for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?

We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.

But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.

What would you do if
*every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?
*every time you wanted someone they would never be there?
*your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore)
*you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?
*you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?

i've got
1.new handphone (K850i)
2.new laptop (ACER-aspire4920)
3.new blog skin
4.new blog song (must listen!!)
5.new bankbook
soon to get
1.new contract with jwss
2.new rank
3.new school term

wah seh!!
can i delete all my friends for new ones??
NO!NO!!NO!!!

FRIDAY IS A BIG DAY!!
PROMOTION!!
gonna take lots picture with 0707!!
and the whole lots of west districts peeps!!
so keep a look out!