31/12/2007..................01/01/2008

My 2008 Resolution, Goals & Targets!

INDIVIDUAL
-Manage my time better.
-Spent more time with my family and true friends.
-Be more responsible in everything.
-Catch a M18 movie.
-Get a part-time job.
-Loss weight? Erm 50kg???
-Keep long hair??
-Find a partner? (not just a boyfriend)

STUDIES
-Get into infocomm/engineering/ nursing.
-Never skip school/class/lesson!!
-GPA of 3.5 for every term.
-Get Real Serious!!
-Be Focused.
-Get Edusave awards..

DAO CHANG
-Qing Kou.
-Camp planner.
-Never skip BXB, QingZhu, DZB, QKB.
-More enthu.
-Ren Cai Ban??
-Visit Shen Wei??
-Get closer to 'laomu' everyday.

RED CROSS
-Jwss EUA07 & CSA07 gold?
-Css FDC District Runner Up?
-Project NCOs 2008.
-Task Force.
-Senior Cadet Officer?
-LSFC?
-ULP 08?
-Linkaminia 08?
-RCY Challenge 08?
-10th batch VIP trainer??

OTHERS
-SC Marathon 21K
-Learn a sports?
-Understand myself better (:

Nobody knows how i feel... nobody can understand why i felt like this.. not even my mum, my sister... not even my close sister lixuan or bettina..

i've lose interest in activities that i used to enjoy, like going to RC event, talking to ppl, even watching tv..

i feel sad, helpless, hopeless, eating chocolate cant make me better.. i sometimes cry in the middle of the night..

i lost my 2kg in 1 week.. believe it??

often i sit down by the window.. should i just jump down??

在14日生日的人。。。

Found this on magazine.. Pretty True..
Mildred and QX read this!!

这一类型的男女朋友，酷爱自由。他不愿意受你的约束，由你控制。如果你的占有欲很高，那你不太适合这一类型的伴侣交往。和你外出的时候，他会经常和其他人谈笑，因为他非常喜欢成为众人的焦点。选择这一类型的伴侣交往，你必须尊重他的自由，并且信任他。

Happy birthday to myself.. i'm 18.. but it was my worst birthday..
if you tell me friends are important.. haha they are not at all.. friends cum classmates for 5 years?? haha not even 1 remembered my birthday..
my fellow RC instructors remembered.. i know them for only 1 yr.. perhaps ppl should not measure friendship with time.. its the thought that counts.. if they remember means remember obvious..
since its obvious those that forgotten, i dun really need your wishes..
oh that wishing is still small case.. i went to hospital yesterday.. GOSH.. why.. dun bother to ask if i'm okie or what.. no need.. my birthday with no cake, no wish, no presents nothing.. haha my worst birthday!! happy birthday to myself.. and XUXUN!!

special special special thanks to:
RCY challenge Alpha-ians cos they sang birthday song to me..
and zhengnong who spent the whole afternoon walking from town to town to town..

thanks for the wishes, i'm blessed!!
thank you: QingXiang Sir, WenFang, ZhengNong, CinLee, Pauline, YingQi, AnnieBek, Mildred, Shwuyueh, Mummy, GuoZhong, Nicky, ChyeKeong, YingSheng sir, Alvin Sir, Wan Qi, Xuan Liang, Dominic, Alicson, Jun Jie, Jesper, Melvin Sir, BaoXin, JiaFeng, HongYi Sir, RenJie Sir, Nora, JunChao..

here i'm making a wish though i got no cake.. i hope to celebrate my birthday with someone next year.. not another celebrating alone :)

i'm looking at someone's blog..

the day i actually know you.. when BB and RC having camp together.. 1 year got 365 days why did both cca have camp on the same day.. it was not planned purposely but i think this is FATE.. you weren't in my eyes at all.. unlike him.. i knew him from sec2.. you were just a stranger to me.. even at night when i went to music terrace to find WY+WB.. i talked to only him & him.. i recalled i totally ignored you..

the next time i talked to you that would be the day we sat down in macdonald having meeting ba.. you sat opposite me.. but i bet i still ignored you.. you didn't catch any of my attention.. i crap around with JC+EK.. taking photos.. sending songs.. playing around..

i dunno when did we really talk.. but is this important.. not at all.. probably after meetings when the 4 of us walk to the same berth of interchange.. 3 of us took 179 and you took 180.. we talk cock until the bus came..

not really sure how we started sms-ing each other.. i told you almost everything every problem i faced in my unit.. you helped me solved them.. we went dinner together at JE.. had veggie meal.. drank bubble tea.. you drank ice blanded grape.. funny you actually from the boon lay side came over to the changi side.. came all the way to say bye bye.. ahahah..

we had the same thing in mind wanted to "help" EK get number from L.. then you already caught my attention.. i notice you ate 2 double cheeze in a day.. haha.. WB thought we were already together.. haha not yet.. we were just close..

in order to help EK, u&i and e&l went out.. went to town.. eat, walk, shop, talk.. it was that day.. i remember what you told me.. i can feel the butterflies in your stomach.. the trember in your speech.. the way you grab my hands.. the eager in me to agree..

what a funny introduction to this story.. everything is like so not normal.. since it is not normal.. the ending wont be the prince and the princess live happily ever after.. haha.. it ended with a FULLSTOP.. rmb our first song keep holding on.. haha it never worked..

whenever we quarrel we will go cycling at ECP.. friday i went there again.. alone.. the mood was so different.. it was at night.. me standing thru the journey listening to music.. taking the usual bus.. walking the same old over head bridge.. took the same route to ECP.. all alone.. since i'm alone.. i reached there at around 7.45 rent a single bike.. and start cycling.. went to find my cadets.. i guess i didn't speak more than 10 sentence.. it was a different me.. i sat there alone.. while the rest played games.. i forced myself to smile when we took a group photo.. then i cycle back alone to return the bike.. walked home alone.. all alone..

RCY CHALLENGE! maths teacher :P

the 89 ppl.. hey we are going to teach you maths..

read from the left k.. [14+15=29] then [4+8=12] easy??

haha it's our birthday date lah.. all LINKED ;)

RCY CHALLENGE!! Photos

we're trying to block the ppl behind us.. haha
CK and bek.. but where is she??
we love our heart drawn by lixuan :)
alpha 3
yar us again..

alpha mentors (:
we've got attitude!! haha..
Division A
the alpha mentors again (:
Division A with guest and commitee

TOO LATE TO APOLOGIZE

ppl kept asking what happened to me and ~ Just stop asking k?? well no more.. dun understand?? In simple terms its breAkup.. k dun ask me why.. i also dunno why.. izzit cos no Feelings.. no!! maybe cos i'm a indepEndent person.. i can do things alone, sovle problems alone, live alone.. i have strong character.. everyoNe knows i'm like that.. once decisions are made no1 can chanGe it.. not even ~ i want means i want.. simple.. well i can only conclude as ~ girlfriend i failed cos i'm not being placed as no1 in~ heart.. everything i did was wrong.. right ~? i over care means i'm control freak.. i dun bother means i petty, I dun LOVE YOU.. nothing i can do but to let go.. if not your best&no1 friends will say that i obstructing you and their relationship.. haha funny.. laugh out loud..

draw a circle not a heart, a heart can break but circle last forever :)

TOHER:
[be happy with what you got.. the world is like that even you give 100% sometimes only 1% comes back to you]

TOHIM:
[everyone has a part to play.. 时间会证明一切]

TO EVERYONE:
[friends just come and go!! family will be the one by yourside!!]

07/07

RCY CHALLENGE! -challenge oneself to acheive-

-DAY ONE (:

DIVISION A!! who will win?? THE GREEN WILL WIN (:

k. we headed to redcross campsite for archery and firstaid/evacuation..
cool?? haha

well i did try out to shoot but haha results wasnt as great as the last time :P
can see that cadets enjoyed themselves.. then had a change over to the first aid side.. the games played was fun.. expecially the "monkey see monkey do" and "stretcher,bandage,blooddrop" haha.. guessing the first aid equipment part was very challendge yeah? very hard to guess correct even for me.. then head to changi campsite.. had dinner.. yar the dinner was so not enough for me and joanne lah.. ate only 2 mouth.. then platoon time.. talk talk.. let them practice for campfire.. then supper, debrief..
this is the place i sleep for 3 days.. challenging? wooden bed, with no fans..
then lights off.. at first was chatting with alvin, hongyi.. until lawrence sir came over and found out we not sleeping so i went to derrek's place.. i slept only at 2am cos the choos was chatting chatting chatting haha.. when i went to my "place" found out the space between xuan and bett was gone ): then had to squeeze with ahchoo :x
picture of the choos before bed.. eyes hardly open..

- DAY TWO (:
didnt had a great night.. too squeezy.. woken up by the unit leaders.. they wake up at 4.45 to bathe i guess and walk around with their dragging slippers.. OMG!! well rest until 5.30 then wake the rest up to go wakeup etc.. then was PT.. wahlao like MI de PE lah.. haha.. lucky got train, can tarhan, chey then breakfast.. breakfast was beehoon.. didnt feel like eating.. ate only 2 mouth.. then we head to ubin..


cycle for 1 hour.. first time leh.. haha.. though it wasnt really a smooth journey or whatever i still finish the journey.. heyhey.. clap for me lah.. this only my fourth time lah.. never lie.. but no pictures to prove yet.. i had a new nickname.. "moving obstacle" haha.. given by the boys lah.. then had soccer.. cool right.. one of my favourite sports.. then leave ubin cos one of the cadet was unwell, brought her back to camp to rest.. looked after her.. then she was sent home..hope that jieying is fine now (:
then in the afternoon was rope challenges.. i bilay the cadets.. great experience.. then also climbed the rock wall.. took me very long.. actually i want to give up.. but my cadets all cheer and encouraged me.. finally i did it!! yeah!!! cool right.. then had abseiling.. that was pretty scary at first.. but i had no choice to finish it by landing on the ground.. i look really stupid in helmet and hanest ( i'm not good at spelling) pictures yet to come.. group flag got stolen ): then the usual stuffs.. dinner.. platoon time.. debrief.. area cleaning as punishment.. then lights off.. this time i sleep early.. at 1 i guess..


- DAY THREE (:
well woke up at 5.. had quite enough sleep.. then got PT.. this time got running.. ah ha i like.. after that got breakfast.. then got changed to dark tee shirt ready for dragon boat.. cool?? haha wah hand really pain lah.. row the boat for like 1 hour plus.. then bathe and ready for general station.. all the team bonding games.. and all.. haha.. pictures yet to come.. :P
afternoon was evacuation/ first aid.. haha casulty again.. cool.. i love being actress... i had injury at lower limbs.. was placed at bunk A with baoyu.. haha..

i was a P2 case but they placed me in P1 area... then i played with them.. i got shock and fainted.. haha.. some1 actually wanted to do CPR on me.. then i woke up telling them no need to do.. i got heartbeat and pulse.. haha then they carry me to P1.. wah there got alot ppl lah.. all cramp in there.. sad that i never get into the ambulance.. ):
then was dinner.. we got changed into our ORANGE TEE for campfire!!

hongyi i wanna be tall for once!!
Chye keong.. the boy i looked after, nagging him to drink water..
Alvin.. forever ask me be logs 2ic..

Jason sir.. my campfire partner.. i had "live" during the song U & I.. haha

catch keane's performance.. haha

Choos.. the last picture for the day..

lots more pictures yet to come.. waiting for YS sir, haz ma'am, etc ppl to send..

-DAY FOUR (:

usual lah.. got PT.. then breakfast.. time for area cleaning.. haha bravo and alpha outside the toilet talking cock.. then qijun sir caught 2 supervisor.. here's the conversation.. [blah blah] why should i share with you all.. i know can le.. hahaha evil!!

then head to HQ.. then the bus the group of guys had some cheers.. [blah blah] dun want share also.. bleah!! but me qx ck and the rest did had a good laugh at them.. haha..then was heritage trail.. i was at battle box.. seat there so long.. then got customer.. 6 groups came at 1 go lah.. super super busy.. haha.. then raining...

so emo.. sat there alone.. ):

then took cab to HQ.. 4 bucks only heng..

the 2 little kids of us.. haha

last alpha photo..

chocolate given by poh boon sir..

please send me the photos which has me!!! thanks thanks!!

吴克群 - 我有罪

我知道我有罪,讲的罪,我太自以为
我知道我有错,讲的错,贪新又厌旧
说话大声是我,就是我,错却不好说
拈花惹草是我,又是我,罪让你承受

就罚我唱情歌,说话别大声,我错我承认
就罚我唱情歌.越唱越大声.我爱我承认
唱到我声嘶力竭,那又如何
你值得更好的男人

我知道我有罪,讲的罪,只出一张嘴
我知道我有错,讲的错,坏朋友太多
让你伤心是我,就是我,错却不好说
痞子无赖是我,又是我,罪让你承受

就罚我唱情歌,说话别大声,我错我承认
就罚我唱情歌,越唱越大声,我爱我承认
唱到我声嘶力竭,那又如何
你值得更好的男人

让我这罪人,嚷到心灰意冷
痛苦已喊不出声
你背已转身,我看到你伤痕
才知道我错我有多残忍

就罚我唱情歌,说话别大声,我错我承认
就罚我唱情歌,越唱越大声,我爱我承认
唱到我声嘶力竭,那又如何
你值得更好的男人

就罚我唱情歌,在也别大声,我错我承认
就罚我唱情歌,全世界失声,我爱我承认
唱到你心灰意沉,听我的歌
这次我比谁都认真
就罚我唱情歌~
就罚我唱情歌~
就罚我唱情歌~哦

this song speaks everything

haha.. dun ever take stupid quiz.. cos it's never real..

"your relationship will last long"
-haha bullshit

"you guys will last for many years, as long as you appreciate him"
-what nonsense.. i did but it didn't happen..
haha.. :)

well saturday went for footdrill silver accreditation. woke up so super early.. although i had a super late and bad night.. then head to meet QX, alvin, 190, xuan, bet and the rest lah.. then met esther in train.. haha so long never see her.. quite miss her.. then alight at JE.. xuan was there liao.. guess what.. OIC QX lost his ezlink card... drag us down.. haha... wait for dunno how many trains lah.. saw pat, i was like 1 yr since i saw her.. never change much ba.. then in train they kept disturbing alvin.. 190 make sounds like deng,deng,deng,deng,deng make him worry and scared that we will be late.. haha.. then reach kembangan i saw the KIASU side of the OICs.. they fight for the cab.. haha.. got 2 cabs right.. fight what sia.. then yar reach campsite then blah blah blah.. after that went dinner with the gang lah.. AMK de steamboat i nv pay cos i nv get to eat.. instead 190 bought donut for my.. i nv eat donut instead i ate 2 icecreams!! haha.. then walk walk at AMk hub.. then go home.. its like soOoOoOoO long nv had gathering dinner after events lah..

sunday went tian guo for JLZ.. then went home for dinner, head to tian hui for DZB.. its another long long day.. but i did have fun :)

Hongyi i love your Ferrero
Xuan Liang i love your Ferrero too.. though its made of wrappers :)





i had bad nights for 3 days cos no1 wished me good night..

k well i found this website from xuan's blog.. its cool :)

Your Relationship Will Last... A Long Time!

Your guy is ideal, as close to Mr. Perfect as he could be If you took this quiz, you may be doubting that... Don't! No guy is perfect but yours comes really close You guys will last for many years, as long as you appreciate him!

How Long Will Your Relationship With Your Guy Last?

okok.. i'm going to do a fast update.. if not jiafeng will kill me.. haha..




caught at work..
doing 剪刀石头布 cards for “jing lao zhou ”




i love spongebob square pants.. nope..
spongebob square boxer!!!



well i went to learn cycling yesterday..
thanks to my daddy and jiafeng, FINALLY i know how to cycle straight (only).
But will learn in this week how to turn.
Guys caught cycling in badminton court..
look at jiafeng, this shows there's a kid in him.. :P haha
see my cute didi doing silly face at me :)

I LOVE ICECREAM!!

i love this picture!!

oh no.. my blog here is starting to rot.. haha so looooong never update..

k this was last last saturday, my uncle & auntie brought us out for dinner..
well the place was nice & the food was great!! too bad if you miss it..
said who vegeterians cant have good food to enjoy?


well i only have 1 thing to say - I love donuts!!




Hmmmm....
i found this when visiting the supermarket.. guess whats that??

Give up?? its potato nuggets.. muhaha.. COOL right??


WE LOVE ICE CREAM!!



dun PLAY PLAY
but we are having fun!!