love hurts! but sometimes it's a good hurt!

haiz! i not feeling well..
it's not those kind of normal sick..
not fever, not cold, not cough...
it's love sick :(

i'm quite a bad girl this 2 days..
i didnt pick up :] de phone calls a few times..
(its on purpose)
i didnt reply :] de sms a few times..
(its on purpose)
i also dunno why...
didnt have the mood to pick up :] call..
neither do i have the mood to reply :]

i was quite moody this 2 days..
thinking how we came together...
he's 20 plus, i'm 18 plus plus..
are we ready to start this relationship??
how should i put it leh?
are we serious in this relationship?
or just occupying time?

for me..
i'm not looking for a boyfriend...
i'm treating :] as a life partner...
i take every word of his seriously..
give every answer after very many thoughts..
i'm i getting to this relationship too early?
can i maintain this for long?
i lost confident in this relationship...

:] close to 98% my ideal husband...
dun need me to say :] knows what i'm thinking..
:] knows what veggie i eat even i didnt tell him..
where the hell can i get someone to replace him??
why am i still complaining?
just cos :] spents time in some real important stuff rather then with me?
i'm abit angry.. but :] doing the right thing.. right choice..
so why am i mad at him?
:] done alot trying to squeeze his time out for me..
even his sleeping time to chat with me..
why am i not satisfied? i also dunno...

am i too dependent on him?
am i relying on his too much?
will i die if he go for NS?
i think i will..
2hrs with his sms and i'm emo..
cant imagine 2 yrs without him...
haiz!


love hurts!
but sometimes its a good hurt!